Clods explain relationships.

You know what my relationship is right now, to explain it to you best, I got to use a metaphor.

Relationships in general is like being a young guy working at an up-scale restaurant, OK? You generally have two choices, working as a waiter, or working valet. They're not really that different of jobs, you can both run into crappy customers, you get about the same pay and you can get good tips if you are nice. Then there are some other people who want to go higher and be a chef, but let's not talk about them.

Most guys would say, "I wanna be a waiter", for one or more of a variety of reasons. They would want just the pleasure of working with the food all the time. The might not ever want to be a valet guy, they like cars, don't get them wrong, but for something serious, they wanna serve food. It's just what their parents and the rest of society would prefer them to do.

Some guys would say, "Yea, bring on the cars," cuz they're just like that. They might tell about how serving food to people can be a pain and not fun at all, just not worth the time. That cars can more easily speak their language then a bitchy customer that expects you to know what they want. Sometimes, they might want to stay with a car and be recognized as being together for the rest of their life, but that's not legally possible in most states just yet.

Then you get some guys who wouldn't mind either one that came their way, they are just cool like that. The situation I'm in now is when I was in some job waiting tables, I liked my job, nice benefits, easy hours. Then one day, my boss, who is apparently the creator of all of us who I'm getting more and more sure each day is myself, came up and said to me, "You, you're going to go valet now. Got it?" Most men at this point would say, "No way, fuck that, fuck you, I'm outta here." But I'm not most guys, what I said was "What's the worst that can happen."

Lighting, fuck yea!

I hate going green.

I mean, some bits, I like the idea of saving the earth and all that, but the small earth saving tips seem really bad. Mostly the light bulbs, I do not like floresent lightbulbs, they take forever to warm up. When I turn on a lightbulb, I want light, not to wait for a while, then be able to see whatever it is I'm doing.

Then I thought I would go one step further, LED bulbs. They hurt my eyes. I don't know what it is about them, but the wavelength of light does not agree with my eyes at all, so they're fucking useless.

Looks like I'm going to go with the incandescent lighting for now. Oh well, fuck the planet. And Al Gore.

A beginners guide to psychic shielding.

First day with my energy vamp girl/boyfriend was a good one. I manage to keep my shield up most of the time and didn't feel tired at all when she left. That's not too interesting. What is interesting is how much I've learned about psychic shielding in such a short time. God, I love the internet.

Basically, what I've learned is that energy vamps take energy, life force or prana pretty naturally. They don't mean to do it, well most of them, they just survive better with it. Kinda like if you don't eat anything for a week, you survive, yes, but you're not feeling to hot. They take it from whoever they can, sometimes more active people that can handle the downtime, sometimes from crowds, sometimes from lovers in the heat of the act. But that's where you come in. You are food. Not the type that you fry up, but more like if you took steak from a cow strand by strand.

If you aren't properly shielded and you meet up with a psy vamp that's licking their lips, you can often walk away feeling tired, grumpy and ready to turn in for the night even thought it's ten in the morning. "What is this magical shielding technique, oh wise and powerful master?" you ask? Well, its quite simple and you can probably just google it, so I'm not going to waste my time with it here. But I will tell you what I've done with it.

One of the first things I did is add incantations for the basic techniques. Imagining a bright light pushing out the bad things in my body comes following the words, "Penitus lux lucis." Roughly translated into Latin it means, "inner light." Now none of the websites I visited mentioned a need for incantations, or any incantations at all. I find them useful as a kind of break between when I'm dozing off with my shield and when I put it up or reamp it. A point between here and there. I got a little shitty online latin translator to do the trick, it probably isn't what it really means in latin, but it's the thought that counts. I also have similar things for other types of shields, like fire.

Also a thing I've done with fire, I was kinda fucking with my shield, kinda fucking with psyballs. I made a shield out of fire, basic bright red spiritual fire. Then I added another layer of the shield, a red glass egg surrounding me. Then I did that inner light trick. For some reason, the Fire was still going strong without having a base or anyway to escape. This was actually causing a lot of pressure. I thought I would just go with it and see if I could do something with it, I pull it all off my body and make it float in front of me. A shield with a strong fire inside and white pure light inside that. I tried to squeeze it down. I tried to squeeze it down as far as I can, I don't really know what I was trying to do, maybe make a diamond. That would be interesting, not something to try on the first day though. It gave me a headache, a massive headache, but hey, I now I know that there maybe is something more to this besides just visualization, maybe it's something more physical.

I'm tired of these motherfucking energy vampires!

I just kinda figured out something. My Boy/girlfriend is an energy vampire.

Well I kinda already knew, because she told me way back when. Then again that was also a time where she still had the whole multiple personalities going on and she has gotten a lot more normal since then. I thought that was kind of just a phase. Apparently not.

Recently, I've always been tired after messing with her for a while. At first, I attributed this to the long amounts of full-force fucking that went on with her. Then there were times when I got tired before anything naughty began. I thought that maybe that my body was tired because it knew if it became tired, I would go to bed, bringing her with me. Then sex was sure to follow.

Then I got on to an otherkin site, never a good idea. I read some things about vampires and for a second I thought I was one, that was mostly because I like to bite things, but I seem to be much closer to a fairy. I know I'm something immortal and I've never really seen things about old fairies. Or male fairies for that matter, but anyway. There were some things on physic vampires, how they made you feel tired. I kind of went "Oh shit, that's it, isn't it?"

I need to practice my shielding techniques.

Avatar in 3-D wasn't as good as just 2-D

Action movies suck. I mean they really suck. They have no originality any more. I just saw avatar, and admittedly, that was the first in maybe a new type of sci-fi, but there were half a dozen trailers before it, and I had a bit of trouble telling one from another.

Here is three movies coming out soon.
Percy Jackson and the Olympians: Yes an original story, with all the gods and monsters of ancient Greece to back them up.
Sherlock Homes: Not only is Robert Downy Jr. an action version of the famed character, he is also crazy.
Clash of the Titans: A remake, I could not tell anything about the plot except that there's a god-damm Kracken in it.
Honorable mentions: Jurassic Park 4, Iron Man 2, Harry Potter 7

It seems like nothing anymore has an ounce of imagination. And it seems like it is all about high-octane, quick paced action. Not about any whim of plot. Our society has become this mass of ADD children looking at the next thing that will blow up.